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Monday, June 28, 2010

Time to make something happen

"Well, you can wish in one hand and dump in the other and see which one fills up first." -- Grandpa Gustafson (Burgess Meredith) in Grumpy Old Men

That quote came into my head over the weekend and morphed into something larger on my two-mile run this morning, in conjunction with the song Right Now by Van Halen, which was running through my mind.

Lately, I seem to be wishing for a lot of things to be happening in my life but, I wonder, am I doing enough to make those things happen.

I once said, in a speech at a banquet "You can't necessarily do or be anything you want. But you'll never know if you don't try." It's advice, right now, that I need to take to heart.

I've been working towards some things but, in all honestly, probably not doing enough to make those things happen for me.

I was thinking, on my run this morning, that it took me way to long to get serious about losing weight but, once I did, I lost 130 pounds and am still losing more. I know I can do the things I want to right now, but I have to put more effort into doing those things, rather than wishing for them to happen.

So, with that, it's time go get after some things in life.


Right Now (Van Halen from For Unlawful Carnal Knowledge)
Don’t wanna wait til tomorrow,
Why put it off another day?
One more walk through problems,
Built up, and stand in our way, ah
One step ahead, one step behind
Now you gotta run to get even
Make future plans, don’t dream about yesterday, hey
C'mon turn, turn this thing around

Right now, hey
It’s your tomorrow
Right now,
C’mon, it’s everything
Right now,
Catch a magic moment, do it
Right here and now
It means everything

Miss the beat, you lose the rhythm,
And nothing falls into place, no
Only missed by a fraction,
Slipped a little off your pace, oh,
The more things you get, the more you want,
Just trade in one for the other,
Workin so hard, to make it easy, whoa,
Got to turn, c’mon turn this thing around

Right now, hey
It’s your tomorrow
Right now,
C’mon, it’s everything
Right now,
Catch that magic moment, do it
Right here and now
It means everything
It’s enlightened me, right now
What are you waitin for
Oh, yeah, right now

Right now, hey
It’s your tomorrow
Right now,
C’mon, it’s everything
Right now,
Catch that magic moment, and do it right,
Right now
Right now, oh, right now

It’s what’s happening?
Right here and now
Right now
It’s right now
Oh,
Tell me, what are you waiting for
Turn this thing around


Friday, June 4, 2010

I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

Yes, it's a great song by U2 but I've been wondering about it for the last couple of days. More to the point, I've been wondering about what I've been looking for.

Professionally, I'm not sure what I want to do. I once thought a career in sports, basically in media relations, would be my life. It may still be where I'm headed again, but I got burned out on it about a decade ago. However, I miss the people and I've still stayed close to sports and maintained my contacts.

Life revolves around sports still and, it seems, it always has. I've found other passions -- hunting, fishing, good beer -- but things always seem to come back to sports. I recently came back from my annual fishing trip, our 21st annual trip (God, where does the time go?) and had a wonderful time as always. The time spent with my best friends is always great but it was coupled with the best fishing we've had in those 21 years.

I came home only to have my high school baseball team, seeded second in the section, lose its first playoff game and the season came to an abrupt end. I've been in a bit of a funk for the last three days because of it. This year's team was one of the best groups of kids I've ever had to work with and I'm looking forward to the Legion season getting underway this weekend.

I went most of the winter without a hockey team to work with and that was really hard. Anyone who has read my blog posts, knows I was struggling with some issues earlier this year and not having games to prepare for, to work, a team to be with, was a part of those issues. It gave me too much time to dwell on things rather than just plowing ahead and getting things done like I usually do.

The other thing I had issues with was relationship issues, or lack thereof. In that regard, I really don't know what I'm looking. I mentioned that to J the other day, that I didn't know what I was looking for. Along those lines, it seems J reads me better than I do myself. I'm thinking I may need to talk to J to see if she has any advice for me and if I can find any answers along those lines.

I've always let my professional life rule over everything else in life. However, without much in the way of a job, I've found myself wondering what I may have missed in life and what I still want.

I had some good conversations with my two best friends while I was fishing. They both made me look at, and think about, some things a little differently than I have been. If there's one thing in life I don't have to look for it's better friends.

I don't have answers to the questions I have. I don't even know if I'm asking the right questions. I know I'm looking for something but I don't yet know what that is, but I hope to have some answers soon. My friends give me peace of mind and the belief that I will find what I'm looking for.